Taking back my life…that may sound a little harsher than I mean for it to sound but the thing is, I’ve been pulled in a lot of directions for quite some time and felt like people needed pieces of me that I didn’t really have to give.
Sometimes we do it because life just has a way of getting crazy and our loved ones need us. Sometimes it’s a pattern and we tend to take care of others more than we do for ourselves. In this case, it’s been just because life got crazy but it’s been crazy longer than I’d like and I’m feeling it in a big way. Most of the time I’m just managing my emotions…checking in with them…sitting with them…taking deep breaths…but I’ve also considered screaming at the top of my lungs a few time…I wish I knew how sound proof these walls really were…
I have learned over the years the value of really taking care of myself and spending time on a regular basis doing things that I want to do. I can’t give what I don’t have and I know what a difference this approach has had in my life and it’s well worth it.
Yesterday was a new beginning, of sorts, for me as I move back into caring for myself first. I don’t feel I need to say no to others but rather ensure I ask myself every day what I need and how I’m going to fill that need. And then I’m going to do it.
I woke up and decided I wanted to take the grandkids to breakfast and then I’d take them grocery shopping with us. Hubby agreed that it was a good plan and off we went. We had a great morning with them and it was a wonderful way to start the day.
After we got home, hubby decided to watch a game on TV. I wasn’t that into it…sports on TV isn’t my favorite thing to do. I love going to games and I love going to social events that include a game but not sitting on the couch at home. I decided to head out and go see a movie by myself. It’s one of my favorite things to do. I saw the movie True Story. The theater has recliners to sit in and I enjoyed some popcorn as well. The movie was pretty good and I’m so glad I went. I wasn’t familiar with the movie at all but it was about a man who killed his family and then went on the run using the identity of a writer for the New York Times. I won’t tell you more because I don’t want to ruin it for you should you decide to go.
The day was perfect in every way. It was exactly what I needed…a success. I did things I wanted to do but also enjoyed time with my hubby, time with the grandkids and, in the process, gave my daughter and son-in-law a break to run some errands and continue getting settled in their new home. It was a win-win all the way around.
I haven’t decided what I’ll do today but I hear it’s supposed to be almost 70 and sunny. That sounds like a bike ride to me…or top down on the car with the radio turned up load…or both. I guess we’ll have to wait and see what happens.
How easy do you find it to spend time on things that are important to you? To honor your needs? What helps you maintain that delicate balance? Please share below.